Thursday

Re: CHIMERICA and the CHIMERA

I hope you can keep working man, cause here's what's going down at my job. At my department(where all we do is data entry) I've noticed some people haven't been showing up lately. They got laid off. They sort of need to lay off even more people. I can't even find a desk sometimes. They need to get rid of the large majority of them because nobody works. Keep the people that do the job, and then we'll get shit done a whole lot faster, instead of having slow pokes keep working on a transaction for 45 minutes when I could have it done in 20.

I shouldn't be worried, but I am because really I cannot do anything to stop the corporate hammer that's about to make it really hurt for me. Since the majority of the work that I do for the bank is being sent to India where they do what we do except much cheaper. We're not allowed to transfer accounts with sensitive information(ie social security numbers mine is 55im not gonna tell you), but logistically, you only need a handful of people to work on these sensitive accounts. There aren't many of them.

So here's what's gonna happen. I don't know when this will happen. I will get laid off, there gonna pick 5 people and keep them. I'm not too worried. If everything goes to plan I won't even be here in the summer anyway, so I can survive on a little severance, wedding gifts, and if I sell my...Wii...gasp!I can find temp work easy in this city. Everyone needs someone to type something. Just give me that severance, that's all I care about. Is it crazy to hope that everything will instantly be better on 1/20/2009?

CJ steal a mic at work, we recording tonight. I about to put ends on this podcast project to get it going.

Wednesday

CHIMERICA and the CHIMERA



how is everyone weathering this recession?
I dont know about you guys but things have been eerily slow around what is already becoming a cubicle ghost office. Its getting pretty scary and while i thought my job was secure before Im starting to have serious doubts.
watched this special last night that helped explain all these terms floating around these days like subprime blabla bla and bla bla bla yeah i started to doze off in the middle of it. But basically in my own terms it goes like : propety rates rise, banks are encouraged to lend to subprimers, who are just people who usually would otherwise rent and who often may have credit issues and in some cases which are hard to believe dont even have a job. BUT when i woke up towards the end of the program they started to link the finicial relationships between china and the us calling it CHIMERICA and stated one of the main reasons that banks were so liberal with their lending was because china was lendin crazy loot to US. fuckin greedy ass greedy asses. now everyones got to pay for some dumb ass decisions made by those greedy ass greedy asses. They compared this united finicial flow of money of CHIMERICA to the mythical CHIMERA beast whos got the a lions head and goat in the middle of his body a snakes head on its tail- FriGGin Dragon claw legs and in some cases wings. what a bad ass beast. I have no clue what the refrence is but it is a crazy combonation of beastly beasts and I wouldnt be surprised if some day in the not so distant future china is going to be running shit because of all the money the US is going to owe them. Maybe I should start taking some cantonese classes. wouldnt it be nuts if the next generation has China outsourcing work to us?

Work is so lame when Im not really working. I work with a bunch of (3) spanish speaking women and feel really ostrichsized because they always speak in spanglish. All this week Ive been secretly been wishing for unemployment- looking up how much I would make- Imagining how survival would be like living on those limited means but having the ultimate freedom to force myself to hustle my own income instead of pretending to work and clock watching. I used to have a few decent friends here but they either seperated us by walls or laid them off. rumor has it that im either going to be laid off this friday or moved to a lesser successful part branch of the bizness. either way im doing nothing else but trying to make myself look useful and responsible so i can have find a chair once the music stops again. but it all feels like floating on a boat with no sail.

btw L4Dead was pretty dope. Lets get some tactics down and start trying our hand at playing against other ppl. CUZ being a zombie lurking in a dark corner is pretty fun too. HOLY CRAP that xbox is addicting though I cant believe I stayed up til 7 last saturday and have been sleeping pretty late lately. anyways if work remains as dead as it is now i hope to be posting far more frequently.

Playing Left 4 Dead like it's the year 2000

Playing finally Left 4 Dead was beyond any regualr experience I've had with the game. It'll never happen again those Smash Brother days. We wouldn't have the time to lay around all day in don's house and force someone to make a jr run. I heard and felt the nostalgia of those memories and those were happy times. I don't play the same way I do online. When it's my friends I can be freee. Let me auto shotgun in the back of your head. Later a smoker pulld me away and I cried so loud into your headsets. Then CJ lit a witch on fire before the witch wildly ripped out his inner intestines. THIS GAME IS FUN

Tuesday

Almost 100 days to go

I've been given the task of writing all the content for our wedding page, and Andrea asked me to write something about how we met and all that business. I just thought I'd share what I wrote.

How it all started

January 13th, 2009

The night I met Andrea I always tell people that I had no idea what I was in store for. At the time I just thought she was a really awesome girl who I shared similar interests with. I imagined I would go to parties with her, hang out at cafes chatting for hours, and watch really awful TV like America's Next Top Model together. During the past eight(almost nine) years we have done a lot of those things and many more, but I did not think that night I was going to marry this girl.

I gave her my e-mail address that night. Isn't that super geeky? I didn't have a cell phone at the time so how else would she find me? Anyway, I didn't think she would e-mail me. She even second guessed herself when she couldn't exactly remember my e-mail address. Fortunately she got it right, and a few days later she did e-mail me. After talking on Instant Messenger for awhile I finally got the nerve to ask her out...in Instant Messenger. More geekiness, I know. Anyway, I took her to a movie and we spent at least an hour talking outside in the cool Milpitas night.

After that we had to endure some rough times. Andrea went off to school in Santa Barbara and we had to spend the next four years apart most of the time. We would visit each other from time to time, and she would come home for summer vacation, but it was enough for either of us. We just wanted to be together all the time. We managed to make it last and 3 and a half years ago, we packed up and moved to Chicago so that Andrea could attend medical school. I work and try my best to make this challenging time for Andrea as easy as possible. It's been really tough because she devotes a lot of her time in school, understandably, but just thinking about seeing her keeps me going. Saying that I cherish every moment I have with her is beyond cliche, but there I said it.

It's like one of those things, you know. You watch a movie that you didn't know anything about and it's the most amazing piece of entertainment you've ever seen. You hear a new song on the radio from someone you've never heard of, from a genre that you usually don't pay much attention to, and you get it instantly. You want to hear it again and again. You appreciate those experiences, those memories a whole lot more than experiences you expected, or prepared yourself to have. I appreciate Andrea like that. More than anything.

The kind of love that we share, the kind that surprises you...I really wish that everyone finds a love like ours. I always thank that part of that let go that day I met Andrea. I didn't even want to go out that night, but I just said, "Aw, what the heck." Andrea is everything to me. I live to make her happy and I can totally be myself around her and I find it difficult to completely let my guard down when I'm around people, so the fact that I can be silly and giggle like a school girl in front of her is, again the most amazing thing ever. She is that song that I would never seek out. The music found me and I can't get enough of it.

I can't wait to declare my love, my heart, and my eternal friendship to Andrea in front of all of our family and friends. See you in April.

-Alvin

God, it's fucking cheesy, but I had to hold back the tears writing that. Admitting that fact is making me cry now. I wanted to add more tomfoolery, more Spiz if you will, but I think all of that didn't fit. It's supposed to be cheesy and I think I succeeded in achieving maximum cheese level. You may leave to throw up now.

Ed note: Podcast is a little late. Sorry. Whadda ya want? Also coming soon you'll be able to download the podcast from an RSS feed/itunes soon. Exciting stuff. I encourage all of you to get mic's so you can be on the show.