Sacramento Bound

So I was going to post a new podcast tonight but for some stupid reason I can't open the project file so I can't edit anything. Fortunately I exported everything before this computer decided to act up so I can post it tomorrow but I can't edit the first part and it doesn't sound as good as I want it to(the background music is louder than the voice track). Anyway I'm too annoyed to work on it now. I wanted to drop the news on the show, but whatever. I already told some people and all of Andrea's friends know so who cares. Thank goodness I backed up everything. Crap sounding podcast is better than no podcast I guess.

When I found out I would be moving to Davis/Sacramento my immediate reaction was FUCK. After a day of thinking about it I guess it's okay. It won't cost too much to live out there and I'll live two hours from the Bay and the Tahoe/Reno area. At least it's not LA. I would feed myself to the rats living in my walls if I had to live in LA. My only concern is what the fuck am I going to do in Sacramento? That question applies to my career as well as my social life. I've never lived there but I have visited friends and family there and all that comes to mind when I think of that place is "boring." As for my career I really have no fucking idea what I'm doing. I just assumed I would go back to school so I can get into the gaming industry on the development side but there ain't no developers in Sacramento. I really don't know what I'm going to do.

I feel so conflicted. I can't help but be disappointed but I don't want Andrea to feel like I blame her. Neither of us really had any control over where we were going and Andrea ranked UC Davis really high because they have an awesome Pediatrics program. Why the fuck should I be unhappy?

• We goin' goin' back back to Cali
• it's closer to the Bay and Tahoe
• only 1 hour away from Ma.
• Cheap cost of living, could even by a house
• At least it's not LA

The idea of leaving Chicago and moving to Sacramento frightens the hell out of me. I'm fucking ridiculous. I'm never happy. As soon I found out I was going to leave Chicago in June I got really sad. Dude, I've spent all these years cursing this fucking place and now I'm going to miss it. When I moved from the Bay to Chicago I was scared, but I was excited and I had no preconceived notions about Chicago. I have negative feelings toward Sacramento so I'm scared and I'm not that excited.

Andrea, no matter where you go and no matter down I may be feeling, just take my face into your hands and just tell me that I'm going to be okay. I'm no good to you Andrea unless I'm ready to make calls, pack and unpack boxes. I'm doing all of this for you because I love you.Be happy. Who cares what I think. If it's a really good program, that benefits the both of us.

I didn't even get into how the fuck are we moving all of our shit.

I'm not writing anymore.I'm leaving. I'll post better tomorrow. You want me to be happy just buy some direct TV and a sweet screen to watch it on. I'm still angry.

Questions for Andrea

I'm interviewing Andrea tomorrow about Match Day for this week's podcast(tentatively titled Episode Four: Andrea iz Real). If you want to ask Andrea a question, leave a comment or e-mail me your questions. You can ask anything.

NYcorrespondence

Ive really been meaning to post about lately but there are a number of factors that have been a hinderence. The main attributing factor is that they restricted any and all internet usage at work and Ive been trying to adjust without going mad. Its a lot like fighting drudgery demons in the pitch black darkness.
a borderline living hell. My only saving grace is https proxy sites that sneak around the work watchers but even then Its not flash or even java script enabled so no checking emails, no fantasy player kansas city shuffles but IT LOOKS like i can blog post.

Ive also been playing entirely way way too much video games. If not every night I will mostly play thru the weekend nights because a good friend of mine, Dann comes over from down the block and well get serious on some gaming from NBALive to little Big planet and of course LOADS of SF4. While Ive been out of the
fighting game loop forever this game brings me right back to my junior high days when i was so hyped on SFII on super nintendo... I was so hyped on that game I remember attempting to force myself to try to dream about the game before going
to sleep by playing imaginary matches in my head before i slept. This however never translated into me being a good player though as a few years down the line I would get my ass handed to me everytime on the arcade SFII alpha we had in our office at midway. I vow to redeem myself...

Ive joined a gym - and try to go at least 3x a week but thats been hard to upkeep especially after 3oclock in the morning late night gaming sessions during weeknites. Ive tried to combat this with shoplifting 5hr energies drinks from the duane reade
next door but I literally boosted every single dual pack in the store and they either realized that they've been disappearing and arent restocking or they moved them to a less remote spot in the store.

Wedding planning is like that research paper you know you have months to complete but really wont pay no mind to until crunch time.... its been a headache and a half. at times i wish we could ditch the plans for a vegas runaways weekend drive thru wedding. keep in mind though, that thats just the lazy in me speaking.

(update)
what we might do is just postpone the whole deal until a later date.
i'll further post on this on a later date if and when its official. but nothings official yet and as of now we still have an appt. for our folks on thurs to put a downpayment on.

psGUYS... id like to work on something with somebody if you guys have any short stories or projects that I could either add illustrations to or we could work on I'd love to get down. like the zombie Gangsta story... hope everyone is doing good out there...

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